I need some help.
Seriously.
This past week, a number of things have transpired that have made me angry.
I hate feeling angry.
Then, on the heels of the lies that made me angry, things were said that offended me.
I don’t know if you know this about me or not, but I don’t offend easily.
Now, I am fully aware that *stuff* happens in life that is maddening, unfair, wrong, unjust, uncomfortable, difficult, and that down right suck rocks. I know I was never promised an easy road. And I sure know that life's hard knocks teach us valuable eternal lessons.
I also know that different people have different perspectives, so those I perceive as liars and offenders perhaps could be completely convinced that they are neither liars nor offenders. They also may be unaware that they’ve offended me.
My head also reminds me that Jesus endured far worse, and far more valid offenses than I can ever dream.
I know. I know. I know.
But I don’t know how to change my perspective. Even if all I perceive is true, that I have been lied to in a harmful manner, I need a different take on the situation. I’ll be crushed under the yucky weight that holding on to this causes.
Forgiveness. Yes. Trust and thankfulness. All steps I must take. And part of me wants to. But so far, about four days now, not happening. I’m still hard-pressed.
In the midst of this, I can feel myself being outlandishly selfish, having a vomit-load of complaints, and whining that my life (at the moment) is so overwhelming and frustrating.
I hate even putting this out there because I hate feeling like a big crybaby. But since it is a matter of perspective, I chose the situation to highlight on POV Wednesday.
So, it is a matter of perspective, right? Or is it more?
Truly, I need your perspective, no matter how tough, to help my perspective on these feelings (incidentally, feelings = not a subject I’m so great on!)
Thanks for your input, Dry Ground friends! Hope your perspective on this Wednesday is that the glass is at least half full. J
2 comments:
Hi Lori,
Its beyond belief the amount of suffering you and Dan have been through the last couple of years. It would have crushed most couples. But, I know your faith and hope is in Jesus Christ. But God has been putting images in my head lately that I can't explain, and He did it again after reading your blog.
I'm glad you and Dan are getting away for the weekend and leaving the sewer behind for a few days. In fact, just go crazy. Walk around IN the Bellagio Fountains with your clothes on. Or stand in the middle of bridge connecting the New York, New York and the MSM Grand hotels and shout "I love you Jesus Christ". Don't worry about getting into trouble. My REAL cousin David's wife is a Las Vegas municipal judge and we're great FB friends.
And as for the image, He showed me an image where a husband and wife where backing for a trip and the phone rang. That was back in 2007 when Jill and I were getting ready for our trip to Kirk's 50th Birthday party. Start packing because I hear Dan's phone ringing!
Love you both!
Jay - I can't tell you how much I appreciate your comment! Thank you so much.
And to my other friend who emailed me, thank you too. You are so kind to take the time, and your words were extremely helpful!
Blessings to you both!
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